Thread:Sera Loveheart/@comment-24503208-20180911160710

I am beginning to seriously question my mental health and is affecting my mind rather severely. The drama being one of the cause impacting it HARD like a jackhammer on a street.

It is bad enough I keep checking on you guys periodically like a stalker though not in a bad way mind you as I only observe specifically the entire wikia in recent activity section.

However, when I keep observing those events, I get tormented so much.

It remind me of my own childhood physical abuse by my dad for no reason other than it keep haunting me like a ghost that refused to budge on the matter.

It is one of those thing(s) that kept me from recovering fully, Sera, and the only thing from my own past that keep me from trying to do something truly good in this time.

It keep imperiled me from letting me starting a new leash in life.

The only thing I have now is guilt and some determination.

It is hard though.

I not sure if I can forgive myself.

Part of me thinks I don’t deserve your forgiveness after what Venom and you (as well as most people) went through.

To be honest with you because I myself HATED me for so much it became a personal thing with me. 