Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-24669562-20171219063036/@comment-24669562-20171219095431

Perhaps you're right. I guess what I did was so wrong, not just leaving this thread complaining about another Wikia member that I still think treated me unfairly (and by the way people, just so you hear me saying this, my feelings toward WikiExpert do not have to be yours, I just have a personal problem with him and he probably has one with me.)

I was also wrong to talk disrespectfully to him. "I hope you get fired from being an admin,,," what the heck was I thinking?! Where do I get off talking to someone like that with that nonsense? That's not my decision! I wasn't standing up for myself, all I did was make a jack--- out of myself. And I'm sad about not what he did but what I did to him. I accomplished nothing yelling at him and then going public with what I did, this did not make me feel good, it nullified all the good things about me. And now I've probably made things worse for myself and am in for bigger consequences. And I messed up my reputation.

I cannot apologize to WikiExpert now,  that ship has sailed and I'm sure he wants nothing to do with me anymore. That's okay he's not the right person for me anyway and it's best we just not contact or associate with each other anymore. But I messed up and I wasn't thinking. And I'm still sad and feel a little terrible about what I said and did to him. I want to be forgiven but even I don't feel I'm worthy of it.

And this is one reason I don't like being mean to anyone, when I'm mean to others, I'm mean to myself and I cause others to be mean to me. Being mean to others never makes me feel good.

How should I have done this better? Probably just not talked to WikiExpert and just moved on.

I also told Special Contact http://community.wikia.com/wiki/Special:Contact about this and requested to hear back from them.



WillTheArthurandBusterFan5050 (talk) 09:54, December 19, 2017 (UTC)