Thread:Kile574/@comment-64.53.195.190-20140723052517

My problem with you is that you took away my freedom to converse with others into something i'm really into. Psi Wikia was the first psionic site where I finally felt that I could freely take part in discussing and practicing psionics. I didn't care how poor a shape it was actually in. I enjoyed myself greatly every day I would get on. The chances of a new person joining to add a new flare to the usual group, and fact not being a major aspect of what goes on. The site and it's inhabitants originality was beautiful to my eyes. My interest in psionics was reborn and strengthen just by being on the site. You taking away my freedom permanetly, and the lack of interest it appears you've gain in psionics are my true issues with you. You taking something so grand away from me will obviously make me hostile. You being in charge of something you don't seem interested in is a spit to mine and every other person who takes the site with more regards then you do. If you still are then you are definitely not showing it one bit.

Lesami, my only problem with Lesami is how much he pisses me off. My belief is confronted whenever Lesami decides to talk. My way of living is always brought up when Lesami is on. That is genuinity... That is the most... Lesami has Autism. I can sympathize with that. I can sympathize with her inability to detect certain queues when people speak to her. But what the hell... Why is her depression... I can sympathize with depression, but she is depressed because she's afraid to be herself... That insecurity.

I have been depressed since I was 11. I was depressed for the exact same thing. Rejection followed by insecurity. Thinking the absolute worse ideas people have about you. Always too afraid to do what you want because you are afraid people won't like how you look, or how you act, or how you are. Always rejected by someone you've loved, family concerned about you commiting suicide, family doing what they can to avoid you because of something you can't change. I Know what that depression is. I've been walking through it alone for the past decade. I've been through depression. Soul shattering depression, and worst of all having your own blood disbelieve your outbursts and cries for help.

Lesami I can at the very least relate with, and i've always always ALWAYS tried to give her advice to get the hell out of it. Since the very moment I met Lesami I have. You know why it is I hate Lesami so fucking much?.. It's because she has all of you backing her up, and people constantly trying to give her advice that she chooses to casually dismiss. I HATE LESAMI because SHE'S given up on herself with all of you fuckers helping her! She's given up, and you people keep choosing to brush it off as casually as you can! You fuckers Kile keep saying that you are helping her but look what it's been doing for 9 months! I'm sick of it BECAUSe everything you've done, just politely saying it'll be okey hasn't done a damn thing at all.

You know what I did to try to fight my way out of that shit i've been going through for god knows how long? Psychiatrists sure as hell didn't help. Positive reinforcement didn't help. Waiting didn't help... I learned to be as Genuine as I possibly can be. I learned not to lie to myself, by facing hardship with a shrug and giving it a harder try the next time! I went against my own fear knowing that everything I want is what I strive for.

I learned to accept fact. That I am what I am, and giving up now would only prove them right.

I would never go to the school and shoot up my friends and classmates, or bring a bomb to there. Or let my own sorrow swallow me into the pit until I died. I'd never prove that those jackasses were right. I am on this Earth for a purpose, and i'll never surcumb to anything less.

I WANT LESAMI TO SEE THAT SAME DAMN TRUTH. I'm pissed because Every negative comment is a straight threat to her life when it's not!. And you are sheltering her in that insecurity! Will you quit being such pompous ass and RE-READ June 21st 11:47-12:47 in the log!

I tried a method that isn't nice in anyway for a reason! I gave straight facts on what Lesami needs to do to get herself out of that depression, I TRIED to do something about it. It's what she needs to hear. Quit dragging on that facade of a fucking life and actually try to do something to change it! QUIT LYING TO HER. Quit helping Lesami Hide who he/she is. Bring out the beauty in every suffering person you jackass!...

I Hate Lesami because she's giving up on herself you!.. People like you piss me off... I'm bad because I did something you didn't agree with. You're good because you disagreed against the bad... That's fucked up. Hopefully Lesami at least gave what I said SOME kind of consideration. If not then go for it. There's nothing I can ever do ever again. Good or Bad. She is in your sheltering care to keep the truth away and the lies in. Forever. Until Something Different Happens.

Definition. Insanity. 