Thread:BrokeNGlass0/@comment-47014387-20201208192319/@comment-47014387-20201210135545

'''That day I was actually planning to take my own life with a seam ripper. '''

But I didn't

'''I began thinking of all the people-my so called friends. I wasn't ready. '''

'''The police called the hospital and put me into the ER for four days. I rarely ever left the room for anything. After this time of isolation I was sent to a mental facility once again.'''

'''So I was stripped to my bare skin and checked for weapons and was looked at for scars and stuff. It was uncomfortable but there was nothing I could do.'''

'''At the mental hospital I was put with a roommate, and on the first day I was put one a one-on-one. It sucked, and I had no privacy. Not even the first day- when I got there I screwed up.'''

I was there for another two and a half weeks.

'''Now, I never would have thought I would have to pull two kids apart like that. This little girl tried biting into this other kid's neck- and what? Was supposed to watch? Hell no! I was going to act! I pulled a mini-vampire child off of the other kid.'''

How fun.

'''So, the next week, I  was becoming more anxious of the children around me. There had been so many restraints it was scary. There once was this new girl that came who began slamming her head into the marble floor while screaming, causing the boy I somewhat saved to lose himself and need restraint, too. '''

I broke down.

'''When I got back, it was a drag. I couldn't do anything. My parents were onto me about my safety and was checking my pockets and everything. It was annoying. Actually, they still do that.'''

'''I was still hearing voices and paranoid and depressed, but not as badly. Kids were still making fun of me- it was nice though that they noticed I was gone.'''

'''The next year nothing happened, nothing too big, at least. I felt I was really alone, that I was going to be consumed completely. That did not happen.'''

'''My mother signed me up to this program called Coaching 4 Change, and that is where I met one of the best people I have ever met since I started school- actually ever. I still hated people- felt alone and hurt- but now at least I had someone to talk to now. I felt that, in a way, they saved me from myself. If anything, they are the reason I didn't do anything I would later regret.'''

'''I started becoming attached to my new friend. Very attached. They were all I could think about. The only thing I cared about. They were vital for my survival, in a way. I could not operate without them. I had gotten to a point where I could read their body language like a book.'''

'''My observation skills are fairly good, with my sharp eyes. Not only that, but I feel like my friend (who we will call Russia lol) was my master in a way. My older sibling- HECK, even a parent.'''

'''I was always different with Russia...I always became more submissive but yet fierce in my own childish way. My loyalty is strong, and if you mess with someone I care about- I dont fuck around.'''

'''With Russia I learned a lot. I learned about life outside of loneliness, about loyalty, and  about true friendship. Of course I was afraid I would somehow make them dislike me, or even scare them away from me. But that never happened.'''