Thread:Kittenbitten-fduser/@comment-33556074-20180914171815/@comment-34781580-20181113194156

i cant handle whats going on my grandfather is dying  being freaking bullying and  my bf and my sister are fighting and they are dragging me into everytime my sister is telling me i have to choose between her or my bf and everyone knows im not the type of girl that wont choose between people and  everything that happening at home  now my friends  know i have depression i have been trying to hide it and nothing is helping it  i just had enough i want it to end  but im scared if i bringn anything up they will  treat me differenly and hate me  i had it happen before  i cant have it happen again i have been hiding my depression because of my dad  and  i have been pretending to be happy its hard  and i dont know what to do things are getting out of hand now   i want all this to stop  but i cant say anything and im scared to tell a teacher because i dont want them to call me dad hes the reason why i'm trying to hide it from everyone but its coming out every second this continues  and  i freaking scared  i also have dreams about my grandfather dying everynight  and after every of those dreams i have more of him dead and when i wake up  i swear i see his body  clear as day  but its never there  it scares the crap out of me and they always come true no matter what.