Thread:X-Mutant/@comment-36009152-20181122161511/@comment-26499804-20181124233418

While I know you mean well but it seems to me not be this is just how I see it as I see it as you are defending someone who has been a jerk. I know you keep talking about my mistakes but calling someone a name like a homophbia but that to me is a nasty word. The way I see it is both of us were wrong although I strongly believe that the other one won't admit it because that seems to be a big problem ever human being has.

As a kid I was falsely accused of being gay because I liked Maria Hill more than Scarlett Johansson as Black Widow or because I like shy girls and tomboys. I was falsely accused of being gay because I didn't droul over victoria secret models in underwear like other boys. And ever since 2018 now I am being falsely accused of being a homophbic and top that again in 2018 when I mentioned that I like a girl's personality more than their boobs other guys are quick to gill me because of that and they say I am gay because I don't like boobs. Now I get grilled by one side and I get grilled by the other and that isn't right to be attacked from both sides.

Also I read your message with Bureaurat with your mention about being good cop and a lot of the laughter in those messages makes question about your how you really view a person like me. I not trying to be Mr negative but I am a little bit on edge on wondering if you really mean well of helping or if you think that I am someone to easily walk over.

The reason why I mentioned the problems my family because well view other people the same way I do my family I just don't seem to find other people are like me. I don't know many people just seem to not think or feel the way I do. I say this because as a kid I listened to the teacher in school I followed the rules I did my school work while the other kids just did whatever they wanted and didn't follow the rules they said that the teacher wasn't the boss of them. But on Zootopia Wiki I am blamed for not following the rules. Like I said I get attacked by both sides.

People always seem to on the opposite side of where I stand like me being a good kid in school while the other kids had been rule breakers and lazy but on a wiki however I am viewed as a  rule breaker, doing work I am told that I am a hard worker but then there's they lazy workers who say they would rather be paid for doing nothing and they give me a death glare when I mention I like to work and while there are many more things I can mention I want say them all.

But I do wonder are you hiding your true face from me but showing your real face to the Bureaurat because I am being an open book here with you. I want to believe that you mean well but with your you calming that I am snared by prejudiced tendrils I am wondering if you even truly believe that I a good and starting to wonder about you. I mean if those say those things you say about me can I really trust you, am I making a mistake to trust you for help or am I reading things all wrong making the mistake of questioning you.

You talk about me doing but the way I see it is we both could better. I keep seeing things of where the blame keeps back to me of where of it is made to seem like a the big jerk person on the planet. Look I don't mean to start a conflict but I see it if I was delete stuff or insulting people I would be wrong in the wrong then. Reading your messages with Bureaurat is that how really see me while see that and the Bureaurat have come colse to trying to reach a an understanding I am still see many times of where they are being a jerk. But I guess that's the way things will be I'm bad guy and there is no way that both of us were in the wrong. As much as I don't want to think this but maybe you aren't the kind of person that I thought you were.

Like I said this isn't the first that I came here for and I have wondered and questioned if I should have even come here the first place. The conflict on Red Dead Redemption Wiki started out because I sent a message to another user telling them to be careful with their edit. Then the admins joined in saying that I was doing their job and said I shouldn't do that I said I was just trying to nice and helpful. But they said it doesn't matter if I had good intentions it's still not allowed. Look I am putting my trust in you and I don't want to question that trust your conversations with the Bureaurat the way you think of me and how you have laughed about it in your messages makes me second guess about you.

Are you really showing your true face over on Zootopia Wiki and putting on a false face around me? Are you really a person trying to help or are you not? I know that this isn't a nice view to have but from what I have seen with your messages then I guess you only the negativity on one side both you don't see it coming from the other person. I am pointing out the truth and reality and if those views that you think about me are true. Then maybe you are also what I said earlier a person who just jumps on the bandwagon.

Believe me I want to see the positive in your messages but I can also see the things that I would think of as negative in your messages. Are your actions truly as good as I thought they were? Because if that's you view or say things in your messages with the Bureaucrat then I don't think that we might not reach a understanding and the Bureaucrat will probably remain an asshole. I don't want to sealed my fate with an agreement the Bureaucrat already did that to themselves I asking an olive branch to be hand to us. But I guess the Bureaucrat will remain arrogant.

So the question is are you really the person I think that you are or are you not?