Thread:Yelmut Eats A Lemon/@comment-40022303-20190726165730/@comment-8-20190726171846

I won't suggest crisis lines, although I very much believe in them, but I will urge you to call 911 (or your local equivalent) if you think you are going to hurt yourself. I'd also suggest you look for online resources that might suit you better, especially peer-to-peer resources.

It's also important to talk to people off-line about how you are feeling. Help is out there!

Your post here is very articulate, so I can see why you got into university - even if you didn't complete it, getting there is an achievement in itself. I know you aren't in a place to believe that right now, but it sounds like you have a lot of overcome and have made progress on that, despite missteps (being an admin for 3 years is an achievement too).

But I (and others here) can't be councillors for you, so I definitely urge you to get help from specialist online or RL people.

I'm going to close this thread now, because of its sensitive nature and because this isn't the right place to get help.