User blog comment:ItzAdreen/My Blog/@comment-26011081-20160414213508

Hello ItzAdreen!

I'm the Founder of the Scarf Heroes Wiki, it is very nice to meet you! To begin, I feel as though your dark feeling, thoughts of wanting to die, and overall feeling of everyone hating/isolating you (do you feel anxious/shaky?) could potentially be some form of depression, and it is always best to seek medical help immediately. Having a metaphorical darkness or evil spirit roaming around you is definitely a good indicator of mine, considering I had just that. I recently made a few appointments with my doctor, and we are solving so many of my issues that way - which, are nearly identical to yours. So you're not alone! We can really relate to these kinds of things, and people can become incredibly nasty in vile in many ways.

It seems we were both bullied in primary school, and I know how you feel. Bullies at that stage in life really do devalue people, and make them feel bad about themselves in several ways which can also lead to further problems later on in life. They are especially effective in making you feel alone.

I understand why you would hang out with younger people. They seem more, well, understanding in my opinion. They also tend to look up to the older crowd, and give that kind of respect. You were wise to choose another group of friends that make you happy, please continue to find your bliss that way. Do what you love, and be proud of who you are and everything you do.

When I read that you help younger people, and care about people in general. I immediately knew you have a kind heart, ItzAdreen. It's great that you're being sociable, like giving people advice. It will only open new doors for potential friends. It's also amazing how you care for those that bully or isolate you, because it shows how selfless you can be as an individual. The world needs more people like you.

Secondary school can be really tough, and often times people really enjoy judging others at this time. Being at the lower end of the "popularity chart" of my school, I felt as though others judged everything about me. But I managed to get passed that by finding the right group of friends and being proud of who I am. Your friend Uni, have you both sat down to try and talk it out? Maybe by explaining to her that you get panic attacks in front of a live audience, she'll understand? If not, keep putting one foot in front of the other and find others that make you happy.

I used to be fun, playful, and energetic too. These kinds of events change people, but you can always try and be your old self again. The way to do that is by being passionate and always doing the things that bring joy and energy to your every day life.

Please don't be scared, if I were with you, I'd give you a big hug. Everything will turn out okay, we just need to find the right steps in making things wonderful again - and we will! You're not alone, I'm ready to continue talking with you about this for as long as it takes! And be safe!