Thread:Journalistic/@comment-679780-20170512113915/@comment-679780-20170517103134

I do owe you an apology.

I thought my argument was because how I see it was outside influences effecting the decisions of SNN, but now I admit I let this all get too far over matters that were either not of my concern or not even there. In doing so you are right, I was behaving out of line. It's not because of power-tripping but will admit that to a degree it has become of that as I believed I was in the right and firmly stood by them. However will also admit I let unneccisary paranoia over self-sense of rightiousness get the better of me when it shouldn't. Paranoia being a reoccuring element in my life of late. Though that still doesn't excuse me from being out of character as a person and out of line as an admin. (Now that I think about it, was pretty f-'d up to go as far as think of other admins as puppets. I'm honestly kinda scared to have thought that before.)

In doing so, my false accusations towards you, I have been to a degree a hinderence towards SNN. I thought what I was for SNNs sake, but I realise now that I was stirring an argument over a moot point and in doing so was stuck with rather toxic way of thinking and besmirching you just because I failed to see it from your perspective. I had no right to take this matter into my hands on behalf of SNN when I was never asked to do so, given it is SNNs decisions for the best of themselves, not because of an outside influence that wanted as less trouble as SNN did.

So yes, I am genuinely sorry for my behavior towards you and sincerely apologize for my accusations. I know you pretty much hate me, perhaps as far as question if I'm fit to be an admin (I apologized to SNN and asked for them to decide if I am fit to continue) but you're right, all this got too far because of paranoia and my own butt-fumes clouding my better judgement.