Thread:Sannse/@comment-3088201-20140108165624

Ok, not too long ago, I made a Happy New Year to All blog wishing everyone on this wiki a Happy New Year and me apologizing for all the mistakes and wrongs I made, but sadly no one showed any notice, not when I made the Happy New Year To All a forum or a blog. It shows this site does not believe in forgiveness or love or compassion for their fellow man, especially if that fellow man is trying to apologize to everyone he has wronged, hurt and insulted on this wiki over the last 2 and a half years.

And I truly meant all of this, I am sorry for all the unkind things I have done over the last two years, and this Thread gives proof. I worry people have forgotten about the commondement of "Love your neigbour as you love yourself" as well as "Love your enemies" No one here is my enemy, though I feel like I am an enemy of this wiki, and this has taken a toll on my in a very emotional level, all I really ask is redemption, forgiveness and a clean slate to start off new for this year, to try becoming a better friend and user on this wiki is one of my New Year Revelations, but I feel like I am being denied to have that Revelation.

To the point, why is it so hard for me to be forgiven and given the redemption I seek? I have apologized in a poem in my Happy New Year blog and in the thread I linked you, yet the users of this wiki have hard and stubborn hearts, even when I wished lots of people a happy new year, no one said anything, its like I'm invisible upon this community. Have I been cursed to be invisible to all users of this community? If so, I ask why? I Want to become a better user on this community, but I feel like its not going to happen if I keep on making mistakes, and when I apologize for those mistakes, no one has the heart to forgive me, and this hurts me alot. I am a very sensative emotional person, and it hurts me on so many levels when people show no concern in giving me any forgiveness. I don't hate anyone on here, but I don't like it seeing other people being hurt either, when people get hurt, I try to give just for those whom been hurt, and even that gets me in trouble with some people. and I try my best to fix things anyway I possibly can. Everyting I try with a positive motive is ignored by all, and everything I do in a negative motive is resulted in hatred by all, its like the users on here only want to hate and stick to negativity, but I want to stick to things that are positive, like kindness, love, caring and forgiveness. I am a very lovable person at heart, but no one sees that cause of my past on this wiki, and it hurts me greatly, and what I feel, God feels too. He is the only one who knows what pain I have been through in life. Like right now I am hurting from the past I had on here, and He is feeling it too. So please, think you can help me with my problem? 