Thread:B1bl1kal/@comment-25906608-20201025170106



Hello, B1bl1kal, may I discuss something with you please? It’s very important. A few weeks ago, I saw that you just gave me a sudden infinite block on Heroism and Evil wiki for "intimidating behavior and harassment and not changing my behavior.” That made me shocked and hurt.  It made me even more upset given I was already banned on Villains wiki for the same reason you stated. Even though honestly, I don’t remember doing anything about intimidating or harassing on Heroism or Evil wiki, both of which you administrate. In either case, I would do anything to make up for the trouble I might've caused it and prove myself worthy of one final chance. Please allow me explain myself.

Tell you the truth, I genuinely don’t remember causing any edit war or any kind of trouble on Heroism/Evil wikis lately. Nor do I have any recollection of doing any harassing of the sort on either the Heroism wiki or the Evil wiki. I think you got me confused with my Villains wiki ban (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2019535#9 ), where I got into a little edit war. So when I was banned on Villains wiki, and couldn’t convince the blocker Jester of Chaos that I learned my lesson or give me one more chance to edit, I tried to think of positives and thought at least I still got my two other wikis Heroism and Evil wiki to be able edit on. But when I discovered my block on those wikis too, I was even more upset. I mean, to be truthful, I hadn't even visited Heroism/Evil wiki as often since we had that new UCP (United Community Platform) activity shift. Seriously, all I remember doing on both Heroism & Evil wiki is simply adding minor edit revisions in spelling and/or grammar. That's all my contribution page has. And I haven’t even touched either site since my last edits on Oct. 3 and it was a simple article revision (https://heroism.fandom.com/wiki/Special:Contributions/Ngh93, https://evil.fandom.com/wiki/Special:Contributions/Ngh93). Therefore, with all respect, I think this ban from H/E wiki might be a simple mistake.

Personally, I see Heroism and Evil wikis as no ordinary wikis. To me, they’re two of my very favorite wikis and are very special wikis that mean so much to me. I deeply adore editing articles such as adding new quotes and images every chance I get. It makes me feel so free to express myself in a very special way. So not being able to edit on them for the rest of my life severely breaks my heart. Really, I’d do anything to make some wrong things right. That's surely proof that I can still be trusted to be a decent editor. Some users (like Jester of Chaos) accuse me of using autism as an excuse and bossing people around and telling me I’ll never change my behavior. But please believe me when I say that my autism is NOT an excuse or a “get out of jail” card. It's a truly justifiable disorder I suffer from and constantly struggle to improve on. There's a big difference. (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2019535#13)

I also talked to my good friend and fellow user Oliver Baghdadi, who wrote a very detailed description of how people on Fandom deal with users with autism is a huge difference. He stated that people "must understand that they are dealing with an autistic, someone who acts and thinks differently from them. If the autistic person does something on a wiki which the other thinks is either wrong or unusual, they have to understand that it's because he/she's different and that's the way he/she is and deal with it peacefully his/her way. Fighting and arguing is never the answer no matter whomever started it. And blocking such an individual is not going to help either in the end.” The basic point is, to deal with an autistic, one must think like an autistic: get into his/her mind and see from their point of view and think how they think. Do that, and the solution to such a problem will answered and resolved in the most peaceful, non-violent way in no time at all. (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016283?fbclid=IwAR1vjclw34dgVX09F25kPSTKuTiZtAO_hQozrU1XccAf83OcCFO0cowWeQE)

Well, here’s the catch. The reason I'm so desperate for my Heroism & Evil wiki bans to be lifted is because I'm determined to right my wrongs and prove that I can atone for whatever mistakes I made on mistakes on those two wikis. Despite others doubts, I believe in my vow to atone myself by all means necessary. That proves I’m still worthy of one more chance—given I never give up on making up for my mistakes. And I will make those wrongs right by all means necessary. 🥺

Here’s a reasonable idea. How about we make a nice civil compromise? Please let me show you how sorry I am for my past actions and how I can make up for it. After all, actions speak louder than words. That said, could you please lift my ban or at least set an expiry date for about a month or two? Like set it expire date at approx November 13 or maybe December 31? That sound good, reasonable, and punishment enough? At least, Jan 1 is always a new beginning. And by then, I’ll be able to prove to you much I’ve learned my lesson and how I can still be a decent editor on both H & E wikis (and maybe, possibly, Villains wiki as well).

And one more thing, if it's any consolation, if you are concerned that this might be an act of sock puppetry or trolling, I assure you with all my genuine honesty that it's nothing of the sort. Nonetheless, you can still simply check the IP addresses to be certain otherwise. Since like all admins on certain wikis, you have the right, privilege, and power to do so when it comes to a possible case of sock puppetry and trolling. Whatever the case, please believe me when I say that was not my intention of this thread.

Please read everything I said on this thread very carefully and give it some careful thinking. I’m sure you’ll make the right reasonable choice. I’d give the moon and the star to edit on your wikis again. Thanks for your understanding. I genuinely appreciate it. 😉 