Thread:Manuel de la Fuente/@comment-40015750-20191129085556

Hello. You said to reach out to you when I was ready to "take the next step". Well it took me a little while to figure out exactly how to do that but now that I've been pointed in the right direction, I would really like the chance to talk.

All I am asking of you is to spare me a little bit of your time before you block me, cut me off, whatever, I just ask for you to hear me out and allow me to explain myself before anything else because I sincerely want a chance to make things right somehow.

First I'll own up to the obvious, yes it was me the whole time, and I am sorry for deceiving you guys. I would not be shocked if you made the connection by sheer intuition alone, LOL. But I guess there's more to the whole anti-sockpuppet process than that. And I realize, especially after reading the community guidelines the other day that I acted in clear violation of the sockpuppet policy. I know it's strange that a guy like me who has so many issues with this franchise would want to come back after being blocked, and I can't fully explain it either, but after some time I really wanted back in and so, you know the rest. I know full well I was not honest about who I was in doing it but I also knew I'd never be welcomed under my old name. Regardless, I am sorry for my deceit.

That said, I would prefer to be referred to as SunWarriorAsahi. I know changing my names and accounts does not absolve me of my actions on my Fire Eater account, I am full aware of that. But I also am looking for some chance to distance myself from my bad reputation on that account if I can, and try to start fresh. Yes I'm responsible for my actions on that account even if I am no longer using it. But I would like to try to move past what I allowed to become a very toxic label. And I'd like to make some effort starting now.

Firstly, let me just say that while seeing that message pop up on my profile last week did make me a little mad, I actually appreciate a lot of what you said to me. A few months ago, I was very angry about the first block and just wanted the chance to voice my frustration over it. But after easing back into the site, albeit not in the most honest fashion, I got past that. And well I gotta be honest, even though I still have very, very vocal disagreements about the direction of the manga, I think we all have at least one thing in common if nothing else, a mutual interest in seeing how it concludes. I may never touch it again once that time comes, but I guess I am curious enough to see it end just like the rest of you guys are, even if it's a manga I couldn't recommend to another if asked about it. But we do at least have that in common. And interacting with a lot of the new guys and old faces on the forums wall, which I was oblivious to before was the best time I've spent on the wiki in the last year and a half that was dominated by our disagreements and admittedly, my vitriol.

Again, I have PLENTY of frustrations about Attack on Titan and when it concludes, I doubt I'll ever recommend it to the first person to ask for my stake on it. BUT...........I realize that I shouldn't have punished you guys for it. Did the manga make me angry? Yes. I can't explain why it did, the reasons are either incredibly unusual or incredibly stupid, probably the latter but we all have a different approach to this I guess, right? But the bottom line is I could've voiced my disappointment in the series' direction without attacking you guys for it. Even deliberately spoiling users just to attack a rule I found nonsensical regarding the separation of the anime and manga forums........That was stupid. I see very little difference in the two versions of the story and even if I see it as superfluous it was wrong to lash out over it as I had done. So again, in spite of our major disagreements over the series' direction.........I am sorry for that first incident.

Bottom line is now I realize I could've voiced a lot of my less positive views of the series without attacking so many people about it. I feel I made better company this time around with a more tempered tone, and I feel like I made a few good new connections that I'd hate to lose so quickly, even if admittedly most of them didn't know my prior history.

But I'm getting longwinded, so let me at least leave you with this before I go on any further; you said I posted a spoiler last week. On an anime board. And if the comment you were referring to is the one I think you were referring to, then I'm sorry. Even though I deliberately broke that rule in the past I swear that this time it was not intentional in the slightest. I swear I failed to take note of where I had made that comment. Was it me referring to Marco, Ymir and Sasha's votes as "sympathy votes"? If so then yeah, that I swear was an honest mistake, I guess I didn't fully consider what I was alluding to when I wrote that on that particular thread. I just said it in passing, it was not meant to spoil anyone.

I certainly have more to say but I think I better not get too ahead of myself, so I'll just leave it at this for now, with my apology over having posted a spoiler. Seems a good place to start. I don't want anyone thinking that was intentional. Anyway, so you figured out who I was, I'll just fully own that I wasn't honest about it, but I would love a chance to undo my reputation from that old account somehow. I very much doubt I'll be using that one anymore. If nothing else, at least just call me 'Asahi' while we're talking, "Fire Eater" isn't the cool handle I once thought it was. Again, I know I got a lot to answer for if I truly want to answer for how things played out last time I was on the wikia. I'd like to try again to "live in community".

Okay I'll stop now. Sorry, short and sweet always seemed hard for me XP   