Thread:Jeffrey Penguin/@comment-31764595-20191116230536/@comment-31764595-20191117143225

Hey, it's okay. Replies like that are, should we say, 'healthy'. Especially in a case like this.

The wiki has most certainly changed you. A more respectable and social person, but one whose time is constantly fluctuating from availability to busy, moreso being the latter.

I can't say that I don't relate to what you've experienced. I was at a lower point in my life (shocking) when I joined too. As you remember, I didn't fit in and tried too hard to. But over time, I "evolved" as person overall. I don't use the word "mature", simply because it doesn't do justice for the change I went through. Story goes on, and I found my first friends, not just online, but outside of this puny town in the middle of nowhere. I didn't care for the sporting events of my school nor people in general, so I had the sociability of a three-legged ant. The wiki, gradually, made me comfortable in all aspects of my social interactives. I was no longer the shy, total outacst that I once was. And to be honest, I didn't see the pros outweighing the cons. Sure, I could talk more and have more people laugh at my jokes, but I don't see myself as being any more unique than the past Term. So at the end of it all, the change of my person doesn't seem good or bad yet, just... different.

And yeah, about the online world consuming us, I think I've been hit the worse of us two. With a fascination and similar love of video games, I was eager to play with Fred over Steam. Unfortunately, my connection wasn't the greatest, and our time together was met with severe lag. Recently, after I've upgraded service, I saw myself investing into more online play than I thought I could ever do. But I've been doing so much of it, I left some things unattended. Mainly, drawing and writing. I don't like it. I need to get back into it. I'm practically spiraling into madness over it. But something that came out of it was more interaction. One such 'game' is one called VRChat. It is, in essence, a brewing pot of interactivity with other users worldwide. I tried it just for experimentation at first. But after a while and acting (about) as comfortable as I am with you guys, I'm starting to make a few friends and have a good time. In end, like you, I'm becoming more social at the expense of personal pursuit. Enough about lil' old narcissistic me-

Whether or not it changed you for better or worse, know that you still are a great person, Jeffrey. As much as I hate using this trope, you can't really change the past. You chose the path that took you to where you are today. Was it the only path? Maybe not. Could things have turn out differently? Sure, but analyzing the choices is no use. You could argue it's predestination if you're into that, but still, don't worry about the past that you have no control over. There's things I want to erase from my past, but can't. Sorry, but we're stuck in the present.

Maybe, in the long run, it benefited you more than you concieved it could. It's just time that it takes, it's just time that it takes.

I apologize if you're getting bummed out by all of this. Honestly, I didn't expect a philosophical discussion either.