Board Thread:General Discussion/@comment-3088201-20140108154216

Ok but seriously, I am saying right now I am sorry for all the craziness that happened over the last two years, just know I have been some pretty hard times and even harder times trying to get along with people, specially on this particular site, I tried getting along with people, but something always came up and some form of arguments started, some I was involved in and some probably started by me due to my own personal principals, and its not my friggen fault these problems happen to me, yes some of you might be offended or hurt by this, but its not easy on me either, this kind of stuff hurts me too, on every emotional levels, the kind of emotional levels that make me stricken with guilt and sadness from the horrible things I've done on here, and each time I try apologizing to some people, they friggin ignore me, and that hurts me a lot more, you all must be glad I am not one of those very suicidal people, cause if I was, I'd would of hung myself ages ago or worse, after having to deal with alot of emotional issues. But thank goodness I am alot stronger than most people.

You know what I am in real life, a human being, someone with emotional issues, I am very sensative about alot of things, I have weight problems, I have stress problems, I have a cursing problem, and one of the problems I battle with most of the time is my sensativity problems, yes thats right people, I am EMO, thats why I can be passionate about alot of things, I have a passion for whats right, I have a passion of helping people, I have a passion of trying to become a better person and try make people laugh after a horrible day, I like to have fun with people online or in real life, I like to make friends alot, and it hurts me when I hurt my friends, I become so angry and upset, yes with my friends, but mostly angry and upset with myself for hurting my friends, and some of the people here, like TK-999, TyA, RansomTime, Atomic Angel, and alot of other users I have met on here, I see you all as my friends and as my brothers and sisters (not by blood but by spirit) and it pains me when I hurt you guys, thats why I left this wiki twice last year! I hurt some amazing people on here and I didn't know what to do, I was to hurt to face anyone on the chat so I left for time off, but truth is I am still hurt for hurting you guys, and I am sorry for all the horrible unkind things I've said or done to you guys, and I want this year to make a difference, I want to be a better friend to all of those I meet on this wiki, and redeem myself to those I've hurt, upsetted or offended on this wiki.

The fact is I am lucky to meet a nice group of people on this wiki, I know we each have different kinds of views on things, but thats what makes each of us special, what makes us who we are today, and one of the things that makes me a special person is I have alot of love and I want to share that love with those amazing people I met on this wiki and all wikis I've made friends on over the years.

If no one will forgive me for the wrongs I've made on this wiki and I cannot get the redemption or forgiveness from the people of this wiki and those I hurt on this wiki, then I don't know what I do, just know I am truly sorry, I just hope you guys find it in yourselves to forgive me. I like to stay on this wiki and become a better friend to each and one of you guys of the entier Wikia community. Just know, I am only human, and I wasn't born perfect. 