User:Comment Spae

= overall problem with myself and why my existence is actually non-negotiable in its absolute inferiority despite what i have to show otherwise = upon realising cultural progressions were reaching a stage of a certain ‘maturity’, essentially immediately, considering i noticed the first and most early real signs of it, after following along with everything that i knew of in detail up to that point of matter, the ‘maturation’ including myself, i would end up in a situation of being unable to express my true identity due to being forced into a limitation that would end up causing me to be unable to make basic choices as an organism… regarding mobility. thereby also preventing any mental energy i would have up to that point from passing through due to the exhilaration of simply being able to do general things being completely faded within one immediate moment. reason for me ever doing this in the first place is my constant refusal to take advantage of any opportunity that i would have despite being conscious and aware of cultural progressions and social normalcies around me since birth. quite literally, since i immediately acknowledged them, in a great level of perplexation. earliest point that i can recall me recognising said culture that i know of to be ‘maturing’ in a way is the release of update aquatic/minecraft 1.13 and ultimate custom night/the seventh instalment of five nights at freddy’s. of course, that would only be the beginning phase, the thing that i would do against the cultural ‘maturation’ that i recognised would not come into play a year following on from that when it was far clearer that things were ‘maturing’ anyway

combined with awareness of how i myself am ‘maturing’ and what present age is, and what my present age actually is is something that i have always been in acknowledgement of, along with the events that have happened within that process, i would of course have a breakdown upon realising both that i had been ‘maturing’ along with the culture i know of around me doing the same in various ways, though mostly by gaining a more self-critical and focused prospect. pretty much the style that i would prefer. thing is, i knew there would be no satisfaction from it regardless because it would just bring me personal shame living in the way that i had been up to that extent in spite of me having full awareness of how something progressed culturally and when it did each and every time. thing is, when i had the most opportunity to do so and was able to do so within an early opportunity, because i have been interacting with things since the 2000s and have been in complete and total knowledge of what it really means, unlike everyone else being devoid of analysis and just taking the past as being more valuable than the present for reasons besides basic opportunity, meaning that every opportunity i had to intervene in social culture in a stable manner at that point was entirely open, especially including the fact of the case that i have a thought process that allows defiance of how things in general are typically used and taken advantage of in general by others and take a unique but socially beneficial approach

so, of course, my ability to do that in general would be completely devoid of presence once i realised that to be my reality, since i realised that only when i also noticed that things around me and myself both were in a real state of actually ‘maturing’ per se. because i failed to take heed of my earliest opportunities of which i was completely in the knowledge of, likely for various reasons of psychological distortion, i would end up failing to take heed of my immediate latest opportunities every single point of development i recognised there to be any in, under the concept of “if i never set up my youth in truth, why be an adult as a result?” or some mannerism of the physiological equivalence. of course, there were various other cases involved in this, such as being forced to be attentive to reality and what i am doing in it in the absolute most basics of being… well, human, pretty much, due to being blacked out of my ability to simply be carefree regarding the most basic of the basic actions. this includes absolutely everything prior to the points in which things weren’t actually ‘maturing’ in the first place considering those points in question are not only affected by proxy but are also the points that served in me deciding that i could not accept things around me being in a state of ‘maturing’ after all due to not having been in at all a state of existence that would be compensative for it happening in the first place. basically, because it’s a result of that, it establishes absolutely everything as being ‘overarching’ more than anything else, since it’s based on absolutely everything having happened up to that point, and also because it ultimately results in me being unable to express myself in a truthful context because i am concerning myself over actual limitations that are taking complete control over me and preventing choices that were simply instinctive beforehand from being possible

then following on from all of that regarding refusing to allow myself and present culture to actually ‘maturate’ without getting myself involved in overarching situations upon the immediate moments i realise those points of ‘maturation’ to be existence, said things ‘maturing’ being both myself and the culture that i know of doing so simultaneously, this would of course leak into the internet due to the well-versed acknowledged helplessness of being unable to do basic things as a result of failing to tolerate the process of ‘maturation’ of myself and the culture around me due to never having taken an opportunity to set up for any of it to happen in the earliest acknowledged period, essentially the beginning of my entire life. to simplify, making a decision regarding tvtropes that would lead the platform to consider it ‘faulty’ enough to remove me from the userbase, and making a decision following the debut of the revival of classic five nights at freddy’s fan games in the 2020s being done by radical and volatile people less than 20 years in age at the time of the revivals being publicised who have no idea how humans really work due to having lost the concept long ago that would lead them to think of me as an antagonist for no other particular reason than seemingly their own sadistic pleasure combined with their almost hilariously bleak strictness about topical accuracy for something with a 6-year history spanning across multiple sources that everyone has forgotten about by the time the first instalment finally fully released because lead director “nocturnum” leads everyone’s preferred attitude due to his own being such that only negative or dark concepts where no lessons about anything are learnt even slightly should be experienced which prevent anyone from ever understanding how a normal and versatile human actually acts to the extent that they arrogantly think someone acting with nuance in response to being wronged specifically by them needs genuine “professional help” under a complete and total misinterpretation of the meaning of their actions due to planning for everything to work in their favour within an argument between themselves and someone they consider an enemy because they themselves do just that

so basically, because i have made my entire existence a horrific pain in the physical realm as a result of denying myself the process of simply ‘maturing’ along with everything around me that i know of upon recognising the immediate, as in actually immediate to the point where i don’t give that point a period to evolve from before deciding, transitioning points of things that i know of to be considered ‘ageing’, the effects have leaked into me creating conflict with people who don’t understand how to be human at all due to being void of any chances by themselves that consider actually acting like a human to be worthy of genuine therapy because they consider acting like a human to be true insanity, all while they act so obviously insane themselves that they lift a heavy weight of social pressure whenever someone who does know how to act like a human comes in contact with them, even with obvious evidence that they aren’t acting like a human themselves in casual terms because all they have the capacity to do in a casual social situation is make condescending jokes 24/7, excusing such with “we are having fun” despite them straight-up ignoring and vilifying those who know what that is in more humane and interactive terms, because they are physically unable to act in a way that leads them to not do that without getting caught up in a situation that reveals how absolutely awful they are around people who actually know how to simply act human due to their own chronic lack of ability to do the same, all of those very same people being involved in 2020s revivals of classic five nights at freddy's fan games that are created in cooperation with the original creator, which ends up highlighting how the original creators in question actually find acting like all of that to be acceptable because they themselves act like that too