User blog comment:Wounded soldier/life is torchure/@comment-5448890-20150511154619

I can't help but feel that you're going a little extreme here in the worldhate.

Look.

If you would only open your eyes and look, you would see how beautiful the world is.

Don't listen to me without knowing the source; I am a poor farmer's son, and when I moved away (at 14, nonetheless), I lived in poverty for years. When I wanted something, I waited for it. If I wanted someone's company, we arranged to meet at a park. My friends were few, but I liked it that way. I probably have been through what you're going through... and while I don't want to erase your problems and don't want you to feel even more belittled, I also want you to realize how big the world is.

You are no older than 18, I can tell it. You have 80, perhaps, more years to see the world. That's 30,000 days, or 700,000 hours. Enjoy every single one, because you'll never get them back.

"But I can't enjoy them!"

Then you're doing something wrong. I hated my life until I realized something: I was after all the wrong things after life. Don't try to fulfill goals set by others; don't try to add up to standards; don't live other lives unless they're lives you want to try living. Live to be yourself, not in spite of yourself.

When described as a place, "The World" is truly an inappropriate usage. Perhaps where you live is in Dampe's seventh circle of Hell, whereas where I live is a small town in Saint Francois County, Missouri. And that's OK. I don't need anything better, anything bigger. But that doesn't mean that something bigger isn't there. I've lived in three states, six towns, four counties; I've been all across the Deep South; and in every town, in every different county, someone else was there, something different to be seen.

It sounds to me like you need to do some exploring. Find a place on a state map, somewhere that'll take a couple of hours round-trip, and set out for there. And while you're there, talk to people. Admire the scenery.

The world is not in the books, or on the internet, or on billboards. It's out there.