Thread:B1bl1kal/@comment-25906608-20201016190514

Hello, B1 may i discuss something with you please? I saw that you just gave me a sudden infinite block on Heroism and Evil wiki for "intimidating behavior and harrassment and not changing my behavior.” That made me shocked and hurt.  It made me even more upset given I was already banned on Villains wiki for the same reason you listed. But whatever the case, I’m genuinely sorry for the trouble I unknowingly created.

Though in all honestly, unlike Villains wiki, I don’t remember causing any edit war or any kind of trouble on Heroism/Evil wikis. I don't remember doing any harassing of the sort on either the Heroism wiki or the Evil wiki. I mean I haven't even visited Heroism/Evil wiki as often since we had that new UCP (United Community Platform) shift. Seriously All I remember doing on both Heroism & Evil wiki is simply adding minor edit revisions. THat's all my contribution page has. And I Haven’t even touched either site in nearly 2 weeks. With all respect and honesty, I think this is a bit too sudden and severe and this must be a mistake.

Also, I think you got my behavior confused with my villains wiki ban (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2019535#9 ), where I got in a little edit war. But to be fair, Just because I had a little issue on that wiki doesn’t mean I get also get infinitely blocked on the Heroism and Evil wiki—which I’ve barely even touched in nearly 2 weeks, my last edit being made on Oct. 3 and It was a simple article revision.

As for "live with the consequences of infinite blockage"? Honestly, I'm able to move on from a lot of things, but infinite blockage? I'm afraid that's not on the list. I just don't find myself capable of not being able to edit on Heroism/Evil wiki for eternity. It just leaves an empty spot in my heart. Basically, being banned forever is definitely something autistic people like myself find practically impossible to handle.

I had my parents talk to Jester of Chaos about my special condition stating if he "Would [Jester] be willing to enforce temporary blocks rather than permanently blocking him when his edits are problematic?  I would suggest blocking him for the remainder of the month so that his punishment is finite.” Though Jester’s response could’ve been much more polite and sympathetic, but that’s a another story. (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016050?fbclid=IwAR2qPI6lmdfRuMAhzBOKbd6m0B9ruZIEY23lRHXEmsSds_D9MYd8_pyoiJk )

I also talked to my good friend Oliver Baghdadi who wrote a very detailed description of how dealing with users with autism is a huge difference. He wrote a very reasonable and well detailed request, stating admins like yourself  must ”understand that you are dealing with an autistic, someone who acts and thinks differently from you. If he does something on a wiki which you think is either wrong or unusual, you have to understand it's because he's different and that's the way he is..." and "...you have to deal with it peacefully his way. Fighting and arguing is never the answer no matter who started it. And blocking such an individual is not going to help either in the end. Sometimes, to deal with an autistic, you have to think like an autistic, get into his mind and think how he thinks and the solution to such a problem will answered and resolved in the most peaceful, non-violent way in no time.” (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016283?fbclid=IwAR1vjclw34dgVX09F25kPSTKuTiZtAO_hQozrU1XccAf83OcCFO0cowWeQE )

So please try to understand me. My autism is not an excuse. It's a very serious condition that I constantly struggle with and due to my autism, I face extreme difficulty following guidelines—specifically ones I don’t exactly agree with! It's just not easy for me as it is for most people.

Basically, the whole reason I'm desperate for both my heroism and evil (and villains) wiki page ban to be lifted is because i'm determined to right my wrongs and prove that i can atone for whatever mistakes I made on mistakes on those two wikis. A lot of people may doubt i can change, but I still believe i can change! These other users may not have any hope for me, but I sure have plenty of hope in myself to improve my behavior on the wikis. And I will never give up on that hope. My vow to atone myself by all means necessary. That proves I’m still worthy of one more chance—given I never give up on atoning for my mistakes.

So that said, kindly could you please lift my ban or at least set an expiry date for at least a month? Like set it expire date at approx Nov 13? I promise you i will be careful with my edits on the heroism and Evil wiki no matter what. Besides, you and I both know how deeply connected I feel when editing these H/E wiki articles. I just LOVE editing on H/E! Thanks for your understanding. I genuinely appreciate it. ;)  