Thread:Lordganon/@comment-7576024-20130827115649

Hello, LG. So, I was just wondering why I was banned yet again, and this time it was for "trying to get around it". That simply doesn't make sense to me. I understand that maybe Fed made a mistake when he was banning me (he allowed me to edit my talk page) but I do not think I ought to be punished for a editting my own talk page, when, as far as I am concerned,, I was allowed to edit my own talk page. (Does this make sense, or am I rambling on?)

Furthermore, I would like to point out how dedicated to the wiki I am. I mean, I am having a kind of hard time not being able to post day-to-day. I am so dedicated, that during my ban, I was trying to work on my TL, which is a singularly individual endeavor, in which I am not offending anyone whatsoever. Also, I was going to use that as a starting point for writing my apology to FS.

My general thoughts are along these lines... LG, you have to realize something about me. (Well, it would help). I am trying not to be one of those people who only map game. I am trying to breach my comfort zone and work on TLs, something which I struggle to focus on.
 * 1) It was an NCNC violation (although the page itself states it is a guideline)
 * 2) I had no intention to flamebait, but have realized after the fact that I may have.
 * 3) As I told you before, it isn't discrimination/Islamophobia, because I did not say anything about FS besides on that page. Should I have wanted to discriminate, I would've gone to his TSPTF nomination and said "No, he is a Muslim", which I did not do.
 * 4) As far as I was aware, Fed did not ban me with the inability to edit own talk page. So, I assumed (since when you banned me) that it was important to stipulate what kind of a ban, and I noted this and tried to used this to get some of my TL completed.

I am not one of those people who quietly sit by as TLs go up, I want in. I was only trying to help in 83DD when you banned me, and this time I have apologized (even stayed up one night so as to try to catch FS on chat on his wiki) several times.

I just want to open up a fresh hand to you, so we can go forward w/o any issues. I am actually sitting here almost in tears (I know, pathetic) because of how sad I feel that all of this happened. I was just trying to open a hand to FS to speak on religion, when I got caught up (admittedly).

LG, I cannot claim to be as mature as you. It is pretty much impossible for a 15 y/o to be as mature as an actual historian. But I still try. I never swear. I try to be a good member of chat when I am on. I try to work TLs in addition to Map Games.

But I am still a young teen, ok? I will not be perfect anytime soon, but I try.

Please listen to me a little bit, ok? Thank you.  