User:TheInternetRuinedMyLife

I'm done
Don't even bother contacting me. I have retired. For a reason given as to why, view the latest chat logs on Encyclopedia SpongeBobia. A certain user on that wikia has ruined my life: her profile on ESB can be viewed here. Anyways, I cannot and will not go on that Wikia ever again anymore because of her. And it really hurts, because Encyclopedia SpongeBobia is an awesome wikia and SpongeBob SquarePants has been a favorite show of mine ever since I was a baby.

What made me leave
An argument we got into on its chatroom the other day really brought our friendship into jeopardy. Here's what happened: she named the users she feels would really be qualified for certain positions and then said that she feels no one needs to request for chat moderator anymore. I interpreted this as her bragging and going on about how she should be a chat mod and that she feels as though she's better than everyone else because of this. I then lost it and snapped at her for her selfishness and told her that excessive bragging will only result in a lesser chance of me supporting her having the position. After this, I left chat just before she could respond, and wouldn't apologize until later on that day, which she accepted.

However, after this, I openly admitted that I felt like a jerk for my actions even after me and her reconciled. Then, I wiped out everything from my page, removed my assistant status, and finally retired and thought that I seriously broke the rules as an assistant despite numerous people assuring me otherwise, all of which was thanks to her. (Another thing is that I called some of the wikia's policies "dumb" via chat and never apologized for it, but that's not entirely why I left nor that major a part of the situation.)

The aftermath
This resulted in several people, including her, disapproving of my choice to retire and bidding me farewell. I then admitted that she was my reason of retirement.

That out of the way, I can safely say that all the flashbacks I get of interaction between me and her make me feel nothing but guilt and pain. After this, I briefly came back to tell her that she has sadly lost all my support as a user and that I downgraded my vote as to whether she should become a chat moderator.

How I feel about all this
In reality, I honestly do not think she should be promoted to such a position. Just because she is willing to protect the chatroom and is frequently active there does not automatically mean she's ready to be promoted. Here's why: she always, and I mean ALWAYS, brags and goes on and on and on and on and on about how she wants to be one and it's so annoying and highly lessens my chances of agreeing with her. Too bad said chances' lowness has already reached its peak and are thus no longer recoverable. I hate how people think she's ready for the position and order her to protect chat.

What else can I not stand about this, you ask?
Another thing about her that I can't stand is her all-too-excessive softness, making matters worse is that it's only toward other users rather than me. For example, she frequently goes on users' message walls and suggests that they request for a certain position. Okay, two things wrong with this: 1. Why are you telling them this? They'll request for it if they want; don't force them into it. 2. This makes me extremely jealous. Why? Well, because she never said anything sweet like that to me before I even became an assistant(!!!!!!) Urrrgh...... I hope she realizes that random and unexpected excessive softness and smiley face emoticons aren't really going to get her anywhere. Another thing about her is her hypocrisy: she is against minimodding yet she does it herself and acts as though she's an admin or whatever. Ugh....

Speaking of jealousy, I once said in chat that I'm jealous of everyone's overachievements in contrast to me, who is the butt of every joke and the guy who finishes last. People asked me where this is happening and I replied that this only happens to me IRL and not on ESB, but I was lying; I was referring to the fact that this is happening to me on the wikia. And how? Well, when SBVTLH asked if she should become a chat mod, a majority of people voted Extremely Strong Support and very few voted Strong Support or just simply Support, whereas when I requested for assistant, people only voted for Support, with only one vote for Strong Support and none for ESS. One word: What. The. Hell?!!?!?! BULL. CRAP. There are no words to sum up the percentage of my jealousy. In conclusion, I feel the same way Patrick did in the episode "Big Pink Loser," only much much worse (probably the same jealousy he had in "Valentine's Day" with the way he reacted upon receiving very little love on such a special day). Icanhascookie needs love too!

Overall
I don't know if there's anything I forgot to point out here, but yeah, SBVTLH has made me leave ESB for good. I feel betrayed, given how I used to consider her one of my closest friends on the wikia. I hope she doesn't succeed in achieving her goals of being promoted to chat mod or any position for that matter, nor do I hope she ever gets nominated for User of the Month. SBVTLH, if you're reading this right now, I am so sorry about how harsh all of what I have said to you feels, but you leave me no choice. If it makes you feel any better, it pains me a lot more to admit all of this than it does for you to read it. I just can't take it anymore and will not go on. I am forever leaving Encyclopedia SpongeBobia for good because of her. Every time I see her username and/or profile pic or just so even think about her, I growl loudly in anger. May this be the last time I ever go on Wikia, as I want to deactivate my account for real and for good this time. No occasional visits, no changing my mind, no nothing. I am so done. Goodbye everyone. :'(