Thread:AustinDR/@comment-25906608-20201015195647

Hello, Austin, can i have your use your help with something please? Earlier this week, i was infinitely blocked by User:JesterofChaos for edit warring and constantly "blowing chances". When he said I "used too many chances" that really hurt me! I honestly didn’t mean to cause any edit wars or any kind of trouble and I’m usually quite a devoted editor.

I first had my parents help me write a letter to Jester, but he blew it off in the rudest, most callous way possible ( https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016050 ), accusing me of conning him! Which I did no such thing!

A few days later, I told Jester how sorry I was and how I never meant for things to get outta hand. I vow to gain his trust again and fix this at all costs. I honestly never realized how many chances I had, but I can't stand the idea of being blocked forever and I'm determined to do whatever it takes to convince him to unblock me so I can show him I can improve on. BUt he rudely dismissed me, stating I had "Too Many Chances while not changing my behavior" That's not true! I'm still working on that! And everyone deserves to another chance. I know i can prove to him i can still be a contributing editor.

I tried to ask advice from my good friend and fellow user Oliver Baghdadi and he wrote a very reasonable and well detailed request, stating "you have to understand that you are dealing with an autistic, someone who acts and thinks differently from you. If he does something on a wiki which you think is either wrong or unusual, you have to understand it's because he's different and that's the way he is...you have to deal with it peacefully his way, fighting and arguing is never the answer no matter who started it. And blocking such an individual is not going to help either in the end. Sometimes,  to deal with an autistic, you have to think like an autistic, get into his mind and think how he thinks and the solution to such a problem will answered and resolved in the most peaceful, non-violent way in no time.” Despite that reasonable request, Jesther still stubbornly and callously blew it off, stating he didn't care and said that "autism is nothing but a get-out-of jail excuse!" How can he be so uncaring and cruel? (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016283 )

You see, I suffer from high functioning autism, which means i have difficulty followng guidelines like other people. As for "live with the consequences of infinite blockage"? Honestly, I'm able to move on from a lot of things, but infinite blockage? I just don't find myself capable of not being able to edit on villains wiki for the rest of my life. It just leaves an empty spot in my heart. Please try to understand me. My autism is not an excuse. It's a very serious condition that I constantly struggle with and due to my autism, I face extreme difficulty following guidelines! It's just not easy for me as it is for most people. One of my goals in life is to improve it wherever I edit. But how can I prove it to Jester if i can't edit on his Villains wiki? I am determined to show you how i can change one way or another.

But when I tried to convince Jester to see this through my perspective he rudely and practically callously accused me of being a pushy person, like he didn't even care! stating "you knew the rules and were more than willing to break them...You never have changed and honestly it’s doubtful you will!" (https://community.fandom.com/wiki/Thread:2016283 ) I've never been so harshly insulted with such false accusations! That's definiitely no way to treat a contributer!

ThenI tried politely requesting him to shorten my block to a month approx November 14-21, but he still refused in the rudest manner you can ever imagine! Well, I won’t stand for this! I just feel so incomplete about being to edit not being on one wiki that the other wikis that I’m not banned from practically don’t matter.

Kindly, could you please try to see Jester see some sense? I mean, make him see this problem from my perspective? Like get through his stubborn mind and make him see my genuine remorse and get him to understand that I can still change and be a proper editor on Villains wiki? Thank you ☺️ I sure hope this works. " 