Thread:Fire Stingray 2017/@comment-12838149-20180914151642/@comment-5688420-20180928173439

Perhaps you don't want me to approach you in any way, shape or form, but this has always bothered me to no end:

I'm so sorry about that impersonation thing that I did almost a year ago.

I never did it out of malice, but simply because... my depression drove me out of control. And now I learned then and there that what I did was wrong. I sincerely apologize for that, and hope that you shall find in in your heart to forgive me.

I've changed a lot since the last time we met. I became more patient and understanding of someone else's time (largely because Clarent keeps a much lower profile nowadays). I also toned down every my perverted tendencies, as well as my whininess, and most of all, my stalker-ish way of approaching someone.

But what I didn't do was move on.

I just decided to keep going in spite of all my pain, and continue on, because someone else out there is looking for me. Putting on a mask just to please everyone around me. But inside, I remain broken.

But I don't blame you for it. I know it's all my fault, and I accept that.

We had a wonderful relationship, Pauly. More than a year's worth of shared laughs, cries and loving. Emotions that we all shared as a Nakama. And it's so sad to see everything go down to waste, just because of one mistake I made.

I no longer expect for you to return to being a Nakama, I know your schedule won't allow you anyways. I just want you to see my last message to you.

I'm sorry, Pauly. From the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry...